I used to roll my eyes whenever my colleagues who are parents starts sharing on how stress they are whenever it's their kid's exam season. Hah, karma. Now I know exactly what they mean! I'm feeling exactly the same! It's like I'm the one sitting for the test!
C1 will be having her first Mandarin reading cards assessment tomorrow with The Little Professor program. When it comes to education, I have always regard my parenting style as carefree, non kiasu parenting. As long as they can socialise well, display enthusiasm to learn, polite and well behaved during class, the rest are just minor stuff. Grades are just part of the system. Ranks does not matter. However, what I had experienced this weekend is totally the opposite! I felt that sense of competitiveness in me, the same I had whenever I prepare for an exam during my schooling years. I can't hide my frustration and disappointment when she is unable to read well.
She is turning five in less than 2 months. I'm not going to be one those parents who makes their kid's life a hell. I refuse. But this aggressiveness is still lingering, waiting to be unleashed.. We still have a long journey to go. We have a lot to learn together and I am still looking for our balance. I really do hope we find it soon.
